Like a Fool...

once again,i am like a fool
always things happen at the wrong times
making me so argh, i don noe
is heaven making fun of me or wad?
i don understand
having weird things happening to me all the time
it stopped for a moment
and it came back
just when i am starting settle down
so wad exactly am i supposed to do?
tell me cos i have no idea

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i sure wan to light up, but the darkness is overwhelming me. i have no control over it, although i badly need it. i wan to run but i can't as it has to come, and it is coming really soon, like really. the new year is feeling like the past, nothing has changed at all, nothing. all is the same and i don wan this cos it sucks. the same old thing all over again. bad news come one after another and the good things never seem to arrive at all. never. even if it will arrive, i doubt it will be anytime soon. izzit true that u reap wad u sow? i don think so, it is so not true, no matter how much hard work i put in, the result is the same, just failure and nothing else. failure just likes me so much that it has to stick to me every single minute and make me such a failure, failing to do things right and make things that were meant to be successful fail. i guess i am the failing magnet, the magnet that fails to attract success and that magnet that never fails to make me fail. U ARE SUCH A FAILURE POCKS, U HAVE TO ADMIT IT AND FACE IT .

Festive Season? Nah

The new year is coming
But i am so not happy
I wonder why
And i wanna noe why
Why make myself so unhappy?
When i can choose to be happy
Am i stupid or wad?
I have to make the choice
Fast or die
Its coming soon
I need to talk
To the one soon
Or else i cant make my choice
And i cant move on
Wad a chinese new year
Last yr not happy
This yr also not happy
Well done pocks
U have done well in screwing urself up
Totally and upside down
And now u regret it
But its too late
So sorri
IT IS TOO LATE
Serves u right

Finally...

i escaped from failure and i hope that is not a moment of luck whereby the heavens don wan me to suffer twice consecutively in 2 days... still a long way to go.. to success(if there is even one in the first place)

Never being able to escape failure...

i failed... yet again

Praying Hard

some things are not within our control
and we only can wait and wait
but till when?
soon i guess
and wad will be the result?
either makes me happy or sad
or i will even not feel anything
cos i am immune to it and wont feel anything
i am so used to it
never felt it before
till now
so lets just pray now
and hope for the best

My Guardian Angel

Feeling both excited and scared
Weird isn't it?
I don wan to feel this way
Am i realli using work to overcome it?
Drowning oneself in work helps?
Nah, i don think so
Not everything will work for everyone
That is why there are many different solutions to things
And i need to find one fast.
And so who will lead the way for me?
Who will make a difference in my life?
We shall see.
But please come real soon
Before something happens.