回来吧....

i want to go to Austria... no matter wad... and to do that i have to study... but i just cant get it started.... tell me how? just wait and die meh? no... i also dunno... and i guess i am just that insignificant, cant avoid that... it does not matter anyway...

Will the same thing happen to me again? will i be the cause again and once again jinx ppl to suffer... its all my fault and i apoogise for it... but i wont want the same thing to occur again, definitely... it is not at all nice and it took me veri long to get over it... so i shall believe in myself for the first time that it will nvr ever happen again, however this time i will make things even better and amend for wadever mistakes i have committed... once again i am sorri... things must not be destroyed in my hands again... nvr ever...