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i sure wan to light up, but the darkness is overwhelming me. i have no control over it, although i badly need it. i wan to run but i can't as it has to come, and it is coming really soon, like really. the new year is feeling like the past, nothing has changed at all, nothing. all is the same and i don wan this cos it sucks. the same old thing all over again. bad news come one after another and the good things never seem to arrive at all. never. even if it will arrive, i doubt it will be anytime soon. izzit true that u reap wad u sow? i don think so, it is so not true, no matter how much hard work i put in, the result is the same, just failure and nothing else. failure just likes me so much that it has to stick to me every single minute and make me such a failure, failing to do things right and make things that were meant to be successful fail. i guess i am the failing magnet, the magnet that fails to attract success and that magnet that never fails to make me fail. U ARE SUCH A FAILURE POCKS, U HAVE TO ADMIT IT AND FACE IT .